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So once again I have arrived at my birthday. It seems that every year I have another one. Who knew that was how it worked. Every year I am reminded of how I have yet to get near my goals in life. I need to do something, anything to get there. I haven't even been filming anything unless it is at school. Now the stuff I have filmed at school has been cool and I am proud of it but I need to do more. I need to be the creator that I know I can be.

I started working on my Santa Horror movie and I love it so far but it is far out of my budget. I just need to figure out how to make everything I want to make. It is hard, it is something that I have no ideas how to make work but I know I have to. Birthdays make me feel so small, I miss when I use to look forward to them and enjoy them. Maybe one day I will again.