Do you ever think about what the future holds? Go for long walks and think about how you want your life to turn out? Sometimes I think I spend far too much time doing that. On the other hand it helps motivate me. Even when I start to feel down and question if I am on the right path, my long walks thinking about how I want my life to turn out keep me going. Motivates me to double down and try harder. To keep working towards my goals no matter what.
Lately I've been talking to friends who have opinions that I just can't understand and I can't help but wonder if these long walks are the reasons why. I have one friends who is of the viewpoint that when you feel down you can't pull yourself out of the funk on your own. A notion that I find downright scary. The thought that you need someone else, or something else in order to feel happy. Happiness doesn't come from outside, it comes from inside. It is something you work and strive for. It's a state of being that you have to decide to want. And you have to want it so bad that you move heaven and earth to find it. You don't always make it, but the effort is apart of life, and no one ever said life was easy.
That brings us to what my other friend said. That happiness doesn't exist. It is not a real thing and no one is ever happy. What a sad thought, one that I don't believe, nor can I understand how anyone could. If you look for things in life to ruin your mood, or make you unhappy you will find it. The world is a dark cruel place, no one is saying otherwise, but there is also a lot of beauty in the world if you look hard enough.
They say when you are single all you see are people in relationships, and when you are in a relationship all you see is single people. There is a reason for this, and it is not that everyone is the opposite of you, you damn egotistical maniac. It's because we as a species have this crazy notion stuck in our heads that the grass is always greener on the other side. Add that to the fact that brain finds whatever we are looking for, even if we don't consciously know we are looking for it.
I guess what I'm getting at is, if you believe that you can't be happy on your own, if at all, than you are right. If on the other hand, you believe that you can find happiness inside of yourself, than you are also right. It is all what you choose to believe.
Choose happiness, you'll be glad you did.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.