So the numbers today weren't as amazing as yesterday but we are still doing much better than we were before we started doing the news and reviews. It is a little sad that it went down nearly 200 people but yesterday was a sign of what is to come, not a one time fluke. Of that I am sure.
Today, or well yesterday, was a whirlwind. From the moment I woke up till well now I have been working nonstop and I still have so much to do before I can turn in. Not to mention tomorrow is going to be a crazy day. I will be up at the hellhole I call school to edit my new short film all day. Normally I would love spending all day editing but I really don't like being at school, at least not that school.
Also the short, I am proud of it, well I think I am. Let me get back to that when I finish editing it. But I think it is the thought of turning it into school that has my nerves eating away at me. That place just makes me feel bad about myself, more and more every time I go there. I know one or two mistakes in the short that I made and I will never hear the end of that. Then there is the fact that I used my actors who my teacher hates. I use them over and over because I enjoy working with them. They know what I want and they are fun to work with. I don't think that is wrong. Every director I love does the same thing.
There is also the fact that I really miss writing Crusaders and need to find some time to get back to it. One day I'll have time to write. There is also the lack of Clean Jeans last week which always leaves me a little down. Recording those pods always makes me happy. I don't know what it is but it's just so much fun shooting the shit with Ashley. Maybe that's why she is my best friend? Who knows.
Or the fact that I recorded Uncanny Fans three shows all by myself today. It's not nearly as fun doing them solo. It gets me thinking about the future and how I'm going to do everything I want to do alone. I told Ashley last week that I am moving forward with Blueroof productions and anyone who wants to be apart of it is welcome but I won't wait around for anyone. No matter what. I wish that the people who say they want to be apart of it would jump on board but I still feel like I'm dragging people kicking and screaming. If I don't than I'll be alone. A one man army.
Maybe that is what I have to do? Who knows, all I know is that I will not give up. I will keep moving forward. Shorts are also coming back to Blueroof Productions very soon. Even if it is just Blueroof Stories, which I thought was over but now I'm starting to miss them. Tobias and John might be making a return.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.