Tired of it all

So after the failure that was this semester I've gone into over time with trying to build Blueroof Productions. I have half a dozen project I'm working on every day trying to get us moving in the right direction and I think that possibly Ashley was right. I'm taking on too much, by the end of the day I feel exhausted. Writing has a way of taking a mental toll on you that drains you more than you would ever believe. Now try writing four different projects a day, it will kill you! But no pain no gain. If you want to make it in this world you have to work your ass off. No one will do it for you.

When it comes to writing I find the hardest part is the first few lines. It has to be good, it has to draw people in and nothing in this world is as scary as a blank page. Something about starting a project makes it seem that much harder, it is almost like your brain does everything it can to keep you from starting. Now I just need to figure out a way to combat this.

I feel so worn out and all I've done today is write, it's a nice problem to have. Hopefully I can finish these scripts soon and we can start production on the radio plays.

On a side note, more and more I notice that people in my life hate religion and people who believe in God. Now I'm Catholic, that being said I've never been one for religion. I think it is largely flawed and a means to control people. That being said I believe in God 100%. There is no doubt in my mind that he exists and looks over us, doesn't do anything for us, he makes us do things for ourselves, how else would we learn? After all life is nothing more than a learning experience and failure is the best way to learn. Why does God let bad things happen in the world? Because we make the bad things happen, because how do we learn if not through hardship? Life is hard, that isn't proof that there is no God. People who believe that God doesn't exist because life is hard are lazy people who want a magical being to take them by the hand and solve all their problems for them. That isn't God's job. He gave us life, he gave us the chance to make something of ourselves on this world, why should he do everything else for us as well? I live my life with the simple thought, God helps those who help themselves.

I don't normally talk about God or my faith because it is something very personal. Besides there is nothing I hate more than people who try to convert other people to their faith. So I don't do it. If someone wants to talk about it I'm open to discussion but it has to be a discussion. A respectful intellectual conversation. I'm done talking to religious bigots who feel the need to convince me that my faith is wrong, that I need to think like them. I don't try to convert you so stop trying to convert me. If you are so sure in your beliefs than why do you feel such a strong need to convince me? Maybe that is something you should look into. I think the most fanatical zealots by in large are born agains and atheist. They can't seem to accept that people believe something other than what they think and they feel the need to attack people none stop. Even people who are friends of mine feel this need. This has been bothering me since a friend came into my home and told me that the world needed to burn my church to the ground. That my people are the source of all the problems in the world. If you ask me that's a great friend. I would never tell him something like that, but he felt he had the right to come into my home and say it. Welcome to America.