So I finally started editing the short film I've been working on in class and right out of the gate I've noticed some problems. I can fix most of them, even spent an hour or so making the flash back work. Only to have my laptop crash on me. Turns out this old thing can't do any real after effects. This is a real set back. It means I will have to spend all day Monday at school editing. I've been going out of my way to avoid school as much as I could.
I've broken out in a bad rash due to stress and since I started avoiding school it has started to heal up a great deal. I also feel more relaxed, more myself again. I'm also enjoying writing and filming like I use to before this program ruined it all for me. I'm really hoping this day spent at the hellhole known as NLC won't send me spiraling backwards into despair.
We had a video meeting earlier today, of which I am still the president although I don't know why. No one comes to the meetings anymore. I mean no one. It's just the officers and a few other people and I really think a lot of it is that when I first took over I asked a lot of the members. I tried to turn it into a short film club. I wanted people to be able to go out and make films. Go out and create after all isn't that what filmmakers are supposed to do? I think that is why no one goes, because they don't want to do anything but sit around and pass the time.
These meetings have become such a pain in the ass. It's like pulling teeth to get anything moving forward and whenever the teachers don't get their way they just throw pity parties. They are supposed to be the role-models for the students, helping to guide people down the right path but they don't. They could care less about the students or our future so long as they keep collecting a pay check and look good doing so. It is a sad thing to see.
As far as the project is going, which is the reason I'm writing, not to bitch about school but you guys know I'll throw that in for free whenever I can. It's turning out better than I could ever have hoped for. I mean it isn't what I saw in my head, the Birdmanesqe film with beautiful moving shots that all flow together, yeah that didn't happen but it still looks pretty good. The lighting is a little low on a few scenes, I'm sorry to say they are the ones I shot by myself so yeah, bad Jonathan! And there is also the fact the first day of shooting Ashley had on glasses and the rest of the time she didn't. Now that was part of the story, we she became "hot" she wouldn't wear them anymore. The problem came from not being able to shoot in the original location for the store anymore and filming that scene with everything else. In all the confusion it just slipped our mind. Now as Director and writer and Jonathan, I should have noticed this mistake so this is on me. And I know Andy will tear it apart for it and I can't say I blame him. It was a major goof and one that I don't know how to fix with the project being due on Friday.
Murphy's Law beats me once again, I really need to learn how to use set backs to make the projects better. I think a big problem I have is there is always tension on set and I spend half my time trying to manage that and anytime I try to take a step away to think people start questioning everything or snapping at me. I need a new system that will allow me to do everything. Or a clone. Can we clone ourselves? But I don't want him to be a baby, I need him to be my age so he can do everything that I can't. Let's work on this Blueroof nation.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.