Sometimes you get so worked up thinking about the end goals that you forget to focus on the journey to get there. I let small set backs and problems with actors distract me from the fact that I am making a movie. I mean really who gets to make a movie? So who cares if things go wrong? So what if my first film isn't perfect, even if that is the goal! It's practice. It's a step towards where I want to go in life, doing what I want to do with my life. A thousand hours of practice makes anyone an expert. This is the start of my training. After all on set experience is a million times more useful than all the schooling in the world.
An interview with Ice Cube set me straight. He talked about not falling in love with the industry but falling in love with the craft itself. Before I started to go to school for film I wrote and acted and filmed for fun. Because I loved it not because I thought I could get something out of it. I need to get back to that. The art of writing is what I enjoy the most in this world and trying to make it so bad has ruined it. Now it is time to go back to having fun.
I spent all day writing today. Close to 8 hours and got a lot done on the second script of Crusaders. This was the most writing I have finished in a lot of time. There was no effort to it. No forcing myself to write but enjoying it. It was like I was reborn. My old self was back and I loved it! Write because you love to write, not because you want to break out. Love the art and not the end game. That's what I have learned from this summer, because success is fleeting but art is forever.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.