So I'm supposed to be in west Texas this weekend working on my friends production but he saw how burnt out I was and let me take the weekend off. Nicest thing anyone has ever done for me. Last weekend I Director the 4 Points Film Project. It was a 100 hour race and it nearly killed me.
I poured everything I had into it and because of one slip up of information on my part we missed the dead line by 30 minutes. The last few days I have been in a huge funk because of it. Everyone keeps telling me that I did all I did and that I can't do everything myself. While I always tell my partners that you can't do it all, you need help this production has shown me that some times you have to take a heavy hand.
I also learned that even when the fault lies with many people you can't sit around and play the blame game. It's a team production and the team failed, not individuals. Sometimes I take the blame on too much myself but as Ashley keeps telling me, it shouldn't be I it should be We. Something I'm still learning.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.