Sometimes in life you get stuck. It can come in many different forms, be it relationships, jobs, or any other in life where you feel trapped. It comes complete with it's on stresses and feelings of helplessness.
In truth, it's how I've been feeling for the past couple of years. Since I left North Lake, I've felt kind of rudderless. Now this is in no way saying I miss North Lake or the bullshit that went on in that department, it's not and I don't. But I do miss having a crew.
After I left North Lake, I held onto a crew for a while and that was a lot of fun, but life is an ever evolving beast and it has a way of drifting people apart. I found myself working more and more alone on projects. Every once in a while I would get help, but not to the degree I had once upon a time.
While all of that was happening, age kept creeping up on me, along with all the stresses that go with it. I felt like I was so behind where I wanted to be, where I saw myself being. I didn't know how to come back from it. In short, I was lost. I started making things just to make things. Going through the motions more than anything else. It was miserable, but what could I do? If I didn't keep putting things out I would get questions about why I stopped or judgments about how I stuck with it too long anyways. I was trapped.
I don't know how I got out of it, but I did. One day I just woke up and decided to start working on stuff I love again. Not worrying about finishing x number of projects a week. Or meeting anyone else standards. Just working on things that I want to work on. Making sure that I enjoy not only the finished project, but also the process, which is something that I lost along the way.
We all get stuck sometimes, but we don't have to stay stuck. We can decide to free ourselves from the traps we find ourselves in. It won't be easy, or happen over night. But, we can do it. We just have to take one step forward at a time.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.