So I overslept today. Last night I couldn't sleep. My mind was racing full speed thinking about everything I need to get done today. For some reason I feel like if I'm not creating a million things a second than I'm just wasting my time and should stop doing everything. It's a sickness.
I know I need to stop beating myself up and over working myself. For the first time since I started Blueroof Productions it's starting to grow the way I always wanted it to. So what do I do? I work harder and add to my list of tasks, till it is impossible to do everything. Than I do everything and feel drained. I can't help but ask myself why I do all of this and the only answer I can come up with is that I love to be stressed. If I'm not working towards something I feel like I'm wasting not only time but my life. I need to be creating all the time to the point where I feel physically stressed out in order to feel relaxed and happy.
Jonathan Gutheinz vents about everything under the sun.