So the numbers today weren't as amazing as yesterday but we are still doing much better than we were before we started doing the news and reviews. It is a little sad that it went down nearly 200 people but yesterday was a sign of what is to come, not a one time fluke. Of that I am sure.
Today, or well yesterday, was a whirlwind. From the moment I woke up till well now I have been working nonstop and I still have so much to do before I can turn in. Not to mention tomorrow is going to be a crazy day. I will be up at the hellhole I call school to edit my new short film all day. Normally I would love spending all day editing but I really don't like being at school, at least not that school. Also the short, I am proud of it, well I think I am. Let me get back to that when I finish editing it. But I think it is the thought of turning it into school that has my nerves eating away at me. That place just makes me feel bad about myself, more and more every time I go there. I know one or two mistakes in the short that I made and I will never hear the end of that. Then there is the fact that I used my actors who my teacher hates. I use them over and over because I enjoy working with them. They know what I want and they are fun to work with. I don't think that is wrong. Every director I love does the same thing. There is also the fact that I really miss writing Crusaders and need to find some time to get back to it. One day I'll have time to write. There is also the lack of Clean Jeans last week which always leaves me a little down. Recording those pods always makes me happy. I don't know what it is but it's just so much fun shooting the shit with Ashley. Maybe that's why she is my best friend? Who knows. Or the fact that I recorded Uncanny Fans three shows all by myself today. It's not nearly as fun doing them solo. It gets me thinking about the future and how I'm going to do everything I want to do alone. I told Ashley last week that I am moving forward with Blueroof productions and anyone who wants to be apart of it is welcome but I won't wait around for anyone. No matter what. I wish that the people who say they want to be apart of it would jump on board but I still feel like I'm dragging people kicking and screaming. If I don't than I'll be alone. A one man army. Maybe that is what I have to do? Who knows, all I know is that I will not give up. I will keep moving forward. Shorts are also coming back to Blueroof Productions very soon. Even if it is just Blueroof Stories, which I thought was over but now I'm starting to miss them. Tobias and John might be making a return.
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So today while I was at Ashley's daughter birthday party Blueroof Productions had its best day ever. Over 200 people visited our site. It is a sight to behold. I only hope that we can keep this up. We have been in the high 2 digits to three digits the past couple days. We are finally starting to make some head way and I couldn't be more excited.
Our entertainment news side of the company is rapidly over taking our podcast department in the viewer department. I feel like this could be our big break. 2016 is going to be our year. I can feel it in my bones. All we have to do is keep this up and expand upon it. So I finally started editing the short film I've been working on in class and right out of the gate I've noticed some problems. I can fix most of them, even spent an hour or so making the flash back work. Only to have my laptop crash on me. Turns out this old thing can't do any real after effects. This is a real set back. It means I will have to spend all day Monday at school editing. I've been going out of my way to avoid school as much as I could.
I've broken out in a bad rash due to stress and since I started avoiding school it has started to heal up a great deal. I also feel more relaxed, more myself again. I'm also enjoying writing and filming like I use to before this program ruined it all for me. I'm really hoping this day spent at the hellhole known as NLC won't send me spiraling backwards into despair. We had a video meeting earlier today, of which I am still the president although I don't know why. No one comes to the meetings anymore. I mean no one. It's just the officers and a few other people and I really think a lot of it is that when I first took over I asked a lot of the members. I tried to turn it into a short film club. I wanted people to be able to go out and make films. Go out and create after all isn't that what filmmakers are supposed to do? I think that is why no one goes, because they don't want to do anything but sit around and pass the time. These meetings have become such a pain in the ass. It's like pulling teeth to get anything moving forward and whenever the teachers don't get their way they just throw pity parties. They are supposed to be the role-models for the students, helping to guide people down the right path but they don't. They could care less about the students or our future so long as they keep collecting a pay check and look good doing so. It is a sad thing to see. As far as the project is going, which is the reason I'm writing, not to bitch about school but you guys know I'll throw that in for free whenever I can. It's turning out better than I could ever have hoped for. I mean it isn't what I saw in my head, the Birdmanesqe film with beautiful moving shots that all flow together, yeah that didn't happen but it still looks pretty good. The lighting is a little low on a few scenes, I'm sorry to say they are the ones I shot by myself so yeah, bad Jonathan! And there is also the fact the first day of shooting Ashley had on glasses and the rest of the time she didn't. Now that was part of the story, we she became "hot" she wouldn't wear them anymore. The problem came from not being able to shoot in the original location for the store anymore and filming that scene with everything else. In all the confusion it just slipped our mind. Now as Director and writer and Jonathan, I should have noticed this mistake so this is on me. And I know Andy will tear it apart for it and I can't say I blame him. It was a major goof and one that I don't know how to fix with the project being due on Friday. Murphy's Law beats me once again, I really need to learn how to use set backs to make the projects better. I think a big problem I have is there is always tension on set and I spend half my time trying to manage that and anytime I try to take a step away to think people start questioning everything or snapping at me. I need a new system that will allow me to do everything. Or a clone. Can we clone ourselves? But I don't want him to be a baby, I need him to be my age so he can do everything that I can't. Let's work on this Blueroof nation. So the news section of Blueroof Productions has been killing me. It has added so much more work to the company and the truth of the matter is. . . I love it. It's so much fun. Imean I wish there was more hours in the day to get more work done on Crusaders #5, I'm just starting act four now, but even with just the time I have I can't remember the last time I enjoyed working this much.
It's giving me a new lease on life. Which is very weird seeing as I have less free time than ever before but for some reason, maybe it's doing things that I love, but whatever the reason it seems to have gotten me out of my funk. I have more energy, I want to go do things, have fun again. I always thought that the secret to living a long happy life was finding a job that gives you meaning and working long and hard at perfecting it and I guess for me it's movies. I was starting to get burned out on making my own with what feels like the whole world working against me but talking about other people's stories has revitalized me and made me more eager than ever to make my own stories and get them out their to the world. So the day when I said we had 87 visitors, I was wrong. It was a hundred. Sadly the next day it went down to 75. So lets see what we can do with today! I'm hoping we can keep it up there and move forward into the next stage of our company!
Our youtube channel is finally starting to get views again. I knew when starting this youtube venture that it would cost me votes at least for a while. I think we may be coming out the back side of it now. We can only hope. All the new ventures that I have started us on seem to be doing their job and I'm excited by this! It takes a lot of time away from my writing but if it gives us the viewers, the fans we need to move into the future it will all be worth it. Creating art in a vacuum seems to miss something. It's fun to create but it is also fun to see how other people react to your art. That's a big part of being an artist. Let's talk numbers. About 6 months to a year ago I changed the name of the website from Blueroofsproduction.com to blueroofproductions.com. Now it doesn't seem like much of a change but it meant a lot to me. It was the name I always wanted the website to have and at last I had it.
The problem is that it reset all my counts. Before the change I have no idea how many people came on the site a day. After the change I started paying attention. It was in the teens, for a long time. When I would drop a podcast it would spike up but then go back down the next day. It wasn't long before I started trying to make this a daily blog. Sometimes I miss but I was writing them a lot more than I ever had before. It had an effect on the site. The daily visits went up to the 20's. I felt really good with that. I know what you are saying, that 20 or so people is nothing, but it's a start. It is the number that we will build the Blueroof nation into something to be proud of. Slowly that number climbed to the mid 20's and then I started doing the youtube videos and posting them on here as well. It knocked our numbers up to the 30's. Hey any jump is good, even if it is a small one. Well yesterday I started on the news branch of our company. Something that I had been avoiding for a while because I have never been a fan of news. But doing the Youtube videos, Character Spotlight and this week in comics more than anything else, made me fall in love with talking about things I love. You would think all the podcasts would have taught me that but sometimes I can be really slow. What is the result of the news branch opening? We had 87 visitors yesterday. If our numbers really jump to the 80's that will be amazing. I was really trying to get it up to the 100's by the end of the year and this would get us there so much faster. I can't tell you how much all the support, little as it may be, means to me and my team. We are still trying to figure out how to do everything we want to do. It isn't easy and for the longest time all we did was talk about it. Now we are trying to act on it. Maybe it isn't the best it can be but we are learning and growing and getting better everyday. Blueroof Productions will grow into something we can all love and be proud of. We just have to keep grinding and get there! Sleep use to be something that ran away from me. The harder I tried to find it the more it would run away from me. Leaving me a tired useless mess. Now it seems that sleep has a hold on me that I can't seem to shake.
I have alarms set off like crazy to wake me up and I just sleep through them. This whole sleeping thing is really starting to be a problem. How do I shake this? How do I get back to the sleeping 2 or 3 hours a day? That was a really nice way to live. I always got so much work done when I was on that schedule. I don't know if it is just the stress that has my sleep all broken but I am working really hard on relaxing. On not letting things get to me anymore. Hopefully it works. |
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